My Poems
I made a deal with the Devil
I sold my soul for a nice chain
but don’t you dare fucking judge me
I know you’ve done some bad things for some good things
told her you love her for some good brain
My cut has re-opened
and my sins pour out like well needed rain
I’ve always been myself
and even when I drown, I never ask for help
even if I did, there’d be no one around to hear me
so even if I lived there’d be no one to commend me
but they sure will condemn me
they can’t wait to send me to Hell
but I’m already there..
can’t you tell?
Thinking About You
I kicked everyone up out my room,
when you left, I really made a mess
and now I need some help,
but my pride has me deal with shit, all by myself
and my heart can’t shed tears but girl, it melts
when I’m thinking of you
do you think about me still? Do ya, do ya?
Or do you not think so far, back
if not then I’m not tryina’ stress ya’
or do you not think so far, in the past
cause we ain’t talked in like forever
but I still think about you..
I fantasize and I still feign and I still dream about you
but trust me babe when I say, only about you
only about you…
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Tell me, how are you supposed to let go
when everything inside you just says no
and the deepest part of your heart says “just hold on”
but ya’ brain says no, cause you can’t make them your own
and tell me, what am I supposed to think?
you said you’d never leave but you did
and you took everything except the kitchen sink
you even took my heart
I gave it to you when you said we’d never be apart
and now, here I am all alone
reminiscing about sweet nights on the phone
home is where the hart is
well mine is on the ground
cause that’s where you left it after you stomped on it ya’ hardest
and now I regret
cause there’s nothing that hurts more than when someone forgets
and you’re just left on the phone
with the dial tone
tryina’ move on
how are you supposed to let go…
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she loves you, so don’t take her for granted
cause nothing lasts forever
and she could disappear like magic
but for now she has love you can’t measure
if you left she’d cry ‘til her voice went hoarse
heartbreak is a storm the soul just can’t weather
so when things really got worse
ya’ soul showed you were only there for the better
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on a dutch full of good weed
just thinkin’ about you and me
we would always fuss and fight
and to leave was so easy
well, I know you still think of me
and I still believe in we
so baby, lets try again
cause I refuse to be just friends
we are a perfect match
I don’t know how this happened, but I want it all back
the fussin’, the fightin’, and the lovin’ after that
love is like crack, and who can argue with that?
love me girl, and never let me go.
Take a chance on us again?
Check “yes” or “no”
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he charmed her
a nice candle lit dinner
he disarmed her
with her walls down, he made his way into her chest
and now when he calls, she neglects all the rest
she’s tangled in his lies
then she let him inside her thighs
with the wool over her eyes
he wasn’t surprised, history repeats
and once again he breaks another heart, right beneath the sheets
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Well, it was cool while it lasted
felt high as fuck, love blasted
love is fake, shit plastic
but lies are real, lying bastard
get too attached and what happens
you fall out, and never get back at it
farewell, I’m hurt and you can tell
you fed me bull, ya love had me blind,
you forgot I can still smell
Dear Marianne,
I know it’s been a long time since I’ve text you
and I know you’ve already forgotten, and moved on to the next dude
but today I woke up and couldn’t stop thinking about the day I first admitted I loved you
And that I wanted us, but the thought of true love made you nervous
you kept hiding your feelings when you knew that it would hurt us
you wouldn’t stop screaming that you aren’t perfect,
but at least I thought we were worth it
but you left and took all your shit, you even took the curtains
I had to watch you leave,
witcho’ dark brown hair, tie die shirt and black jeans
all I wanted is for you to marry me
but if you love em you’ll watch ‘em go,
I had to set you free
you weren’t even hurtin’,
just the pains from your past made it hard to focus
I started to feel like my daily texts were just a burden
but I was so attached that when you left it felt like I was a different person
well, fuck you! I made your lying ass my whole world
I swear to God this was the last time I’ll ever trust a girl
cause now I just stand butt naked in the mirror
and just the sight of my own fucking face makes me want to hurl
so next time you decide you wanna lie and play a lot
just don’t tell him he’s your world when he’s really fucking not
instead why don’t you just go date a motherfucking jock
cause I finally got my heart back but you left it tangled up in fucking knots
It Didn’t Last A week
I’ve got a question
actually it’s more of a suggestion
you should stop using your past as a weapon
when I saw how high your walls were, I had to stop for a second
but still I charged in girl, no second guessin’
and I can tell you’ve been hurtin’
cause every time we argue, you always start cursin’
and when we’re done arguin’, with other dudes you start flirtin
well, what’s ya purpose, you just wanna hurt me
I gave you my fucking heart and you never reimbursed me
when we first started talking I was feelin’ kinda lucky
but if I could take it all back, I would…trust me
now I’m gone, write our love in stone
R.I.P us, it’s time to move on
my heart was strong, ya’ love was cheap
and it didn’t last a week….
Marvin’s Room
Fuck that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we’ve had
do you remember the good times that turned bad?
well baby I do and now I want them back, can we turn back?
I think I’m in love with you, or the memories we both share
but you don’t feel this way and it’s not fair
I see you and ya new man around and shit
long nights filled with memories, alcohol, and guilt trips
all we used to have was good sex and bad arguments
ya’ favorite excuse was always that I started it
well I miss you,
I even remember the first time that I kissed you
you said ya heart jumped, well mine did too
now all I’m really askin for is a part 2
Intimacy
I’ve been thinkin’ about you,
like how you’d smell in the bed when I’m laying beside you
or how you’d moan while I’m creating much needed friction inside you
so let me know, if you’ve been feeling this way too
cause my blood is rushing all because I’ve been thinking of you
I wanna touch you, but only if you want me to
do you have a boo, or maybe you’re already taken
you said you keep ya body clean and I’m prepared to face it
you said you’ve never tasted love, baby we can make it
cause when two hearts collide it’s ecstasy, especially when you’re naked
so trust me and I’ll trust you back,
and I’ll love you even through all the things that you lack
that’s a fact, not a promise, this is a love pact
you got my love locked down like a mouse trap
Zombies of the Night
cries of the soul-less, cries of the teen-aged
drawn in to the devil, by songs of the mermaids
we drink down his words, that tastes better than Kool-Aid
actions break promises, as I develop a stomach ache
I look for an outlet, to let go of the pain
house note eviction, now I’m out in the rain
I lived in your heart, it was so dark and cold
holding on to your love, which is worthless and old
back on the move, searching for a home
fall in love quick with hearts harder than stone
hear my soul cry, in the pitch black of the night
darker than the darkest, 11:59
I sit and I wonder, and stare up above
where are the angels? I can’t find the love
How To Love
You had a lot of dudes try to play that part,
turned out it was too hard, couldn’t never figure out how to trust
whenever they said the word love you understood it as lust
and now you’re close to 30 yellin’ the single life is too much
but you never took the chance, you never just believed it
he offered you his heart but you decided to leave it baby
but I admire your walls and their persistence
but now they won’t leave and you’re in need of dire assistance baby
you’re so sad, seems nothing can make you happy
cause the man who once loved you is married and he’s a daddy
you had a lot of loves that could’ve lasted forever
but now you’re all alone and taking pills for depression
you would go out and party but we’re in a fucking recession
you’re mad at the world and about to use suicide as a weapon
see you had a lot of dudes try to play that part,
turned out it was too hard, couldn’t never figure out how to trust
you had a lot of loves that could’ve lasted forever
but now you’re all alone and taking pills for depression,
how to trust….
Messages From You
I hate getting messages from you
they’re like a blast from the past and a downward spiral is what you send me through
I hate the shit you do, But you love me still, and girl I love you too
Dear, A Dying Love
a lot of shit done changed, except my love for you
na who am I kidding that shit has changed too
as a man my feelings inevitably change,
but change is great considering my intellect could never stay the same
Remember we used to laugh ‘til 2 in the mornin,
said I wasn’t tired but was always the one who ended up snorin’
now a days it seems our conversations are speechlessly borin’
and my search for love continues as it seems that I’m whorin
well, I wish you could understand me,
sometimes I feel like a foot of rope and a stool would really come in handy
cause half the time we’re arguing and your love is getting sandy
you ever tried to hold sand? I got to fix this love considering I’m the man
but I wrote a script for us and I’m waiting for it to pan
cause falling out of love with you was never the fucking plan
grab my hand, hold it as tight as you can
and lets recite some shit that’ll take us away where we stand
whether it be a prayer, or some satanic chant that takes us to his land
I’ll be alright as long as you consider me your, man
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I thought I knew what love was, but I never really did
until you came into my life and showed me how to live
love has really surfaced, and now because of you, I feel like I’m a different person
I know we need a break, but we don’t have to take it
lets just push through it, I feel like we can make it
Moving on? I don’t think that I could take it
‘cause after all the love I’ve grown, without you, I’d feel naked
So take another chance on me, I know I messed up
but realize how much it kills me to even fess up
so many arguments are wouldn’t blame you for hating me
but I feel like the best thing in my life, was you almost dating me
I still have faith in we, just tell be how to be..I’ll change for you
our vibe is the greatest, I swear we never fake shit
just to kiss your lips would have me sweatin’ and shakin’
the thought of loosing you and going to Hell, I view equally
‘cause what’s the point in a Heaven if you aren’t there with me?
That sounds like such a sad eternity,
I’m the devil, I’m just asking you to burn with me..
‘cause I know my words and all my shrugs burn to see….
Love
Let’s get lost in each other.
We don’t have to wait, we can make it last forever,
like best friends through bad weather, we make a flood seem like rain and the heaviest weight like the lightest feather.,
No smoke in the air, I can see our future clearly
it seems I’m always depressed cause I’m happiest when you’re near me.
My heart needs yours as your heart needs mine,
you say you feel my love the most when I hold you from behind
love and love together is such a good time, and I take pride in nothing else but knowing that you’re…………mine.
But lately I’ve been a bit distracted, arguing and fighting, childish is how we acted
seems now that we have to part ways, and that fact stuck my heart like a cactus
I want to fight but can’t find the energy, I feel different something dark has truly entered me. Whether it be pride or doubt or some other evil entity, you have to fight for us, I mean…shit that’s what you promised me. And we both made promises so let me fucking stop, the real question at hand being..is love real…or not?
For Fun
As I sit and I think about what to say to you
my hands start to shake as my thoughts begin to sync.
You’re beautiful and I just want to please you
I know ya’ heart made some laws, so if it’s not legal
for me to steal your love, then I’ll be a criminal sent from above
and you’ll be my victim, lookin for a cop, while that old pride encrusted engine of your heart starts to stop
and as we break down walls and kill insecurities, my love starts to melt away your complex simplicities
then I look to turn you on, I laid you out like a stretcher
pressing ya’ buttons and pulling on your levers, you cringe for more and more as we move to each level, I commit sex crimes no, selfish, guilty, pleasures.
Can You Hear Me
now if you hear me maybe you can help me
I had a previous savior but that bitch left me
I’m unlucky and forgotten, but that’s just life
warm love & romantic nights still lead to strife
well alright, if you love me the I’ll love you back
I sent my love but you stopped it like a heart attack
I’ve learned my lesson and now you annoy me like a damn itch
you’re so gorgeous, sad to say you’re just a gilded bitch..
Cry of My Heart
Hear me cry, but I’m not crying I’m just sayin’
I’ve done a lot of shit in my past and now I’m payin
you say you sent ya love express, you must be playin
‘cause I’ve been feelin’ this way for months, that’s a lot of delayin,
but on the other hand I still haven’t opened up
which has you confused and cryin’ like “wtf?”
doubts, insecurities and no trust, leads to fights
long sad nights and then hearts break and such
Oh well, guess I should’ve known better
now I’m addressing my heart in this damn letter, like
excuse me, how many times I gotta tell you to stay true to ME?
runnin’ off and lettin hoes use you, you so stupid “B”
you’re supposed support me, and keep me alive
instead you beat for this nonchalant creature that hurts you and tell you lies
then you start to cry and come back to me, it’s crazy
this girl has a grip on you like she’s chokin me.
Akeelah
Original Title: Thinking clearly, yet, my thoughts are jumbled
I changed this message so many times.
There is this woman I was in love with. I’ll always love her. Dumb shit went down, I’m not angry. Hurt. Since you’ve been gone I’ve changed. No bullshit I’m not the same. And that’s the only reason. I feel like you left me. For whatever reason you weren’t there and it pushed me down the wrong road. Now, I’m not blaming anyone. but these are facts. It’s not anyone’s fault shit just happens. People argue, time passes, and feelings change. I understand and would never take it out on you. Like I’ve said before I want you happy with me or with someone else…That’s a lie but I’ma pretend like I mean it. I don’t have any effort left. I threw my all into us and landed on my face. So honestly, Idc like I used to. And it’s ok because you don’t either. I think about you daily. Now..
one thing I won’t do is wonder anymore. I’m not going to wonder what you are doing while you aren’t texting me. Or who you’ve met and are talking to now. Or wonder if you still love me like I do you. You are a risk that I’m not willing to take anymore. I already regret saying that shit but I just felt some anger from a while back and I need to release it. This wasn’t even all I wanted to say -shrugs-
